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Wednesday, May 03, 2006

today in cannda is my one month anii wiff linn linn! haix..feel bad i didnt manage to make her happy on the aniversary in singapore timee! now she is havinn exams ba..hope she doess well! alllll the bestt!!<3

these past few days has been reali boring..sigh..it has always been like dat since the day ive comee! so much fuckiin work and all..sigh... so stressed and tired..i miss singapore,i miss all my frens and i duno why after my mum has left i feel kind of lonely again..sigh...wish all this wil come to and end soon.. i wana go back so badlyy! its kind of sad when i think of it that in the past i used to wana go back and stay in singapore for this particular grp of frens whom im no longer that close to anymore and now i wana go back for a new grp of frens....frens reali do come and go and reali not all frens reali can stay forever expect for some of them... i reali dont know what im doin these few days...everythn seems so messed up! seems t be doin the things and sayin the things i dont wana say and keep everythn that i wana say to myself cause i cant let it out! feelin sad...what am i doing man...i was nv like this in the past as i was most of the time transparent wif my thoughts and actions. circumstances reali change a person frm being himself man....haix..

ytd i talked to suen..sharing the same old problems and all.... i guess in life we cant always have what we want and the things we want might not reali be the things thats best for us too. sigh, i just cant help by thinkin back why did i ever screwd up the second chance i had before? time reali passes very fast and i reali wish i can turn it all back...so much regrets so much mistakes so many things i wish i didnt do and i cant do anythn but to look back and sigh. ive reali got to learn to look ahead continue or else time wil reali pass me again and i have to regret even more..sigh

stories of joell on 9:49 PM