Joel Ee
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Friday, February 17, 2006
this is my new blog that i have created..i wanted to tel everyone to tag and mie and stuff but then i decided not to in the end cause i guess this is the place i could let go of some feelings that i have that no one knows.....
this year has been a lonely valentines day for miee...but it was ok i guess casue my heart seems to heavy or hurt to get into a new relationship. i was browsing through friendster as usual lokin at natalies acct and then i saw her new photos she uploaded wif jerrold..sighs..once again the emptiness and hurt came back ...it was almost the same feeling as the other time when i saw her pics wif nat suen at the chalet wif jerrold and also the time when i saw her kissing pics wif jerrold.....sighs, memories of mie and her came back once again and i remember that the most fun time we had was during the time at ailins hse where we would be at the swimming pool talkin and playing...and also the time when she sneaked out of her hse...it was reali memoriable and as i thought back i could almost grasped the feeling then when i was wif her.....but then that was al in the past now...
when i went back last decemberi onli saw her twice onli out of the whole time...and we became almost like strangers alreadi...when i saw her drunk at jadens party how much i wish that i could b the one to take care of her but i guess i moved frm the main character in her life to jus a normal charter that jus used to be a part of her life.....
sighs, i think she is pissed wif mie now that it seems as though everytime i talk to her which is the one or 2 times is jus bcause i wan her to help mie make my blog but i guess she wouldnt realised that since she went wif jerrold i could no longer be the same as how i used to be wif her anymore, cause i dont wan ppl to misunderstand and jerrold to misunderstand....n moreever she has so many frens by her and a bf to take care of her so there reali isnt a need for me to be there anymore....even though mie and her may seem like strangers now but inside my heart even though sheisnt my gf or anythn but she stil holds a position in my heart.....sighs...i miss her alot....n i stil love her....
我很想你 听见了吗?这是唯一我无解的困境 那些过去不肯过去 不管我后来遇见多少人 只能叹息 都不是你
stories of joell on 12:09 PM
