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Sunday, May 07, 2006

im getting so fuckin pissed off now... this is so fuckin hell ridiculas! i say liao forget abt the whole fuckin issue why is the fuckin problem brought up again?? and this is to the so FUCKING understanding people whom i cal my frens...i hope u all fuckin know that im doin my FUCKING best to prevent any fight as well!! why cant u ppl put yurself into my shoes? im fucking in canda and im so fuckin unhappy and sad alreadi..i stil have 1 and a half months of work to catch up and do well in and the reason why im mugging like a dog is fuckin casue i wana go back to singapore during july august and also cause i promised my frens so...do u know how hard is it for me to act as if im ok to everyone in cannada when im not jus bcause i have to look like im settled down so that i can go back during the summer? i'm so fuckin stressed missing my family and friends and havin to force myself to complete and do well in my studies jus so i can go back but whyy is ppl in singapore causing SO MUCH FUCKING problem for me?

put yourself in my place..one side is the grp that is so close to me for years and the other side is my girlfriend and my 2 very gd fren cam and terrence who have been there for me as well!when this 2 clash what the fuck do u wan me to do?? i tried preventing the fight again and again and again tryin to cool things down between both sides butt why cant either side jus fuckin give in and jus forget abt the whole damn issue? n jus t let u know ven im fucking in cannda! do u expect me to get news like this jus like when im in singapore?? and the fuckin time difference is so fuckin hugee! do i not have to fuckin slp??i'm doin all these trying to persuades both sides because u are all my frens or else i wouldnt give a flying fuck abt this god dammed issue as im alreadi stressed and sad enuff! i can understand lin and everyone to be pissed when the fuckin anon is scolding us like fuck and we cant figure out who it is! who wouldnt be pissed? and i can understand that ven they all wuld be pissed when they got wrongly accused! but who can fuckin understand what position im fuckin in when boths sides have my fuckin gd frens in it? and the thing is why am i supposed to be blamed when this fuck wasnt caused by me and by then fuckin anon? jus to let u realise that im fuckin tryin to prevent any fights and how come when things don work out for a moment IM FUCKING T BE BLAMED AGAIN?? pls la..im jus a human and i have so much work and stress on my own...i am no God or some tower of refuge when somethig goes wrong and im there to pick up the mess n save everyone! moreever im FUCKIN IN CANADA! once this whole fuckin issue is settled im goin to end it once and for all..one by one all call yoursllf my frens, bros and mei but out of all these ppl how many of u are reali meaning it and are helpin me....

when things work out for a moment ure nice and grateful..but when things dont work out for that moment im to be blamed again...i hope this thing end once and for all... i reali cant be bothered after this if anythn is to happen again....

stories of joell on 3:48 PM