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Monday, May 22, 2006

i remember one year ago i ever loved a girl for a ver long time almost counting to one year. During that period of time i went to cannda to study.... i remember the time when i jus got there i wuld call her every single day! sometimes i wuld jus cal her in the morning to say gd morning to her and at night i wuld cal her to chat wif her...during the first few days everything went so well...everytime i called she was so happy and she would tel me that she loves me and that reali made me reali touched. But as time passes things got worst for us..i felt that she started getting annoyed n irritated wif me that ive been calling her so often and slowely this love faded...she nv said she loves me anymore... now when all these has passed i looked bak and thought back what has gone wrong between us.... i felt that during the time i have been too sticky with her calling her so many times a day and maybe i was quite a boring person which sometimes led us to silent conversations but one main thing that i felt was that i didnt trust her at all... there was no trust at all and that made me suspect alot...i always tend to wonder if she is cheating on me and stuff like dat...so i guess this was the mistakes that ive made which caused the relationship to not work out...

this led to the second long distance relationship i had....knowing all the mistakes ive made before, i told myself nv to make the same mistakes again. This time i can say i did not call her as much as i did wif the previous girl as i didnt want her to feel bored of me..i didnt want her to feel irritated and annoyed wif me . Also seeing 2 of my frens that had long distance relationship before, i felt that trust n understanding was one major factor as we arent be able to see wht they are doin there...saying that, i gave her all the freedom she wanted and i trust that she wuld not do anythn to betray me...of cos here and there we have made our mistakes in our own ways but as long as we understood each other and forgive things wuld work out....But all this thinking was proven wrong in one day..25/05/06. She said when i come back mayb we can sort things out and start over again.... but if making somthing happen is as easy as saying it out through your mouth then there is nothing impossible in this world alreadi.... don lie to me..i know it wil nv happen. Its alreadi so ackward now that we talk and moreever we are barely even talkin.. imgine how things wuld be like in july...

sometimes things like this happen and its neither me nor your fault. ive tried all that i can alreadi... for you i have worked so hard jus to come back... ive tried my best to hold on and uve tried your best too.. but i guess if we were nv fated to be together in the first place theres nothn we can do... i guess thats life ba....

stories of joell on 9:29 PM