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Saturday, June 24, 2006

one full year in cananda has passed... started frm last year september to end of june now. reali has been one long journey for me... sighs...now is the start of a 2 months holiday and my fuckin parents dont want me to go back.... i get so pissed of whenever i think of it. they tel me the most stupidest and dumbass reason of why im not comming back..that is that they have no money! like wtf.... how can they force me to stay in cannda and say they have no money for me to go back and den stil pay for another years of fuckin suffering for me in cannda....that is so fuckin stupid! sighs...i wish i culd argue wif dem and argue my way back but seeing the recent problems that has been happening wif the family i reali cant say anythn.... i jus realised that my student visa actualy expires on september and its so obvious that my parents are trying to be smart and make me renew it now so that it wil expire nxt year september and i wuldldnt be able to force my way back by not renewing it..... but for now ive made up my mind to not renew it yet so that there wuld stil be a open road if i wana go back to singapore or else i wuld be stuck and have no choice but to stay in cannda....

i talked to my mum on the phone recently and i reali get so fuckin pissed off with them....i swear i reali hate my fuckin parents... they have the smartest brains but the hardest hearts... they can continue talkin my brother to change if they continue their fuckin ignorant attitudes. my mum said she also dosnet wan me to go back is also because she dosent like my lifestyle that i come back 2-3 am everynight and all so thats why she wans me to stay in cannda. n that pisses me off so bad too... so if i were to cme back at 2-3 am everynight in cannda and take drugs wuld that mean they wil send me to the 3rd country? wtf is wrong wif dem man... i don do nonsnse in cannda is cause i wana be guai and i wuld be able to go back to singapore and not let it be an excuse for dem to force me to be in cannada. if i want to turn back and get into shit i don think its a damn hard thing to do..... im so fuckin pissed off thinking of the 2 fuckin months im gona be spending in cnanda...i swear i can reali kill someone now....its a fuckin saturday and im fuckin doin nothn....n thats basically how its gona be for the whole summer besides the one or two weeks that i wuld be goin for a short trip.... nvm...i jus have to ta han now and when i reali explode i wil make sure my parents get my ticket back.... all i can say is that this world is fucked up... everyone is fucked up and my parents is even fucked up.... its boils my blood when i thot back how they perusaded me in the past was by saying at least i can go back 3 times a year...n now look.... when i was in singapore someone told me that if i go back now and stay til june and stil cant get used to it den they wil talk to my parents on letting me go back permantly but look... who culd forsee all these problems...whatever ppl say is all one pile of shit, they jus wana influence me to make my parents happy, and when my parents is happy they are happy... fuck dem.. fuck my parents..fuck this world.....im not gona give a shit abt anythn anymore... i didnt know that me tryin to be gd in cannda wuld be used as smthn againset me cos it made my parents think the environment has changed me....wtf..im gona prove it all wrong at once.....

stories of joell on 2:48 PM